Another day, another ponder.

It's one of those aggravatingly slow days at work - with the addition of my boss illegally smoking in his office juxtaposed against the tantalizingly fresh, warm, spring air on the other side of the screen. Unfortunately there's not enough breeze to rescue me.

I've spent part of my afternoon revisiting grad school search websites, attempting to broaden the scope of programs to which I might apply. But 'theology' and 'religious studies' masters are so broad and so frustratingly long-listed with schools that I inwardly groan and want to bang my head on the desk. (I'd outwardly groan, but that would probably give away the fact that I'm not actually "working" - ha!) I guess environmental theology and ethics isn't a common sub-speciality. :P Figures. But wading through so many options seems unnecessarily time consuming and overwhelming fruitless.

So I return to what I know. I keep bouncing back and forth between preferring the program at Green Bay because it's only two years and then I can move on to theology more quickly, and Indiana because I can possibly craft a degree that includes a little theology and ethics on the side, but would take me longer to complete. My mother is right, I am going to be in school forever. But I can't help it. Two Masters and a PhD sounds really damn appealing. :P And accomplished. And totally befitting my level of geekdom. LOL.

As I drove through our neighborhood yesterday, I even had the urge to walk to the Lutheran church just down the street this coming Sunday. (Jim would be so proud. lol.) I was even kind of excited about that ...until I realized it's Mother's Day and I plan to drive home for the weekend. St Peter's doesn't feel nearly so appealing after the disaster of an Easter sermon/service. *facepalm*

And I'm trying not to unnecessarily burden myself with guilt over what I haven't accomplished already since this most recent shift in my foundations. (I almost put "shaking of my foundations," but it sounded too much like the title of Tillich's book, and I went "oo, there's another one I need to read" and it distracted me. See? TOTAL nerd. But I digress...)

I haven't started studying for my GRE, I haven't continued reading Rita Gross' "Soaring and Settling" (Buddhist theological reflections) that I picked up off the shelf the other day, and I haven't requested/started dialogues with my two preferred grad programs yet. But it's only been two weeks since this whole new evolving process started, I tell myself. Because if I start burying myself in those things, I'll never find enough motivation or gather enough momentum to get everything accomplished.

But that's enough for this post. Ta for now!